Gonna Leave Sandakan

Tomorrow I have to leave Sandakan, go to KL... Gonna start a brand new life... The life that I have to handle all the things by myself. I have to be adult soon, no more small kid at outside.

My feeling now is really complicated... I should be happy, but I can't be happy... I'm actually sad, but I can't be sad... ?? I don't know what I'm doing... Outside is raining, actually I hate it! Going to university is dream. Before this, I were really looking forward to the day I start my uni life. But now I gonna enter uni, I gonna leave home... Why? Why I'm not happy?

I gonna separate with my family, and my honey, and my friends... There are lots of memories in Sandakan. Today I went town with my honey, just hanging around the town... The feeling is weird... Oh, I leave here tomorrow... I am in different place tomorrow...

Outside is still raining... And my tears is finally rolling...

Dad... Mom... Your daughter finally is entering uni! Don't you hope it for a long time... You told me You want me to enter uni and ask me to study hard, at the 1st day I were in kindergarden.. Start from primary schoool, I told myself have to study hard, just want to enter uni, because I know you will very happy at the day I enter uni and graduate from uni... Now I did it, I have enter uni... You should be happy! and please wait for me for 4 years, I will graduate! Don't worry about me... I will take care of myself and I will be strong... Oh, never treat me as small girl again! Promise me too, please take care of yourself... I care of you! It's really, though I never express it out!

My boyfriend, I know you are so worry about me... But please don't... I promise you I will take care of myself... Please don't be sad because we are in different uni... We have to be strong! We must have confidence for ourself! I believe in you, I trust you! Just because I believe in myself.. And also I believe our love is true and will be long lasting! Wherever, Whenever, Deep in my heart, you will be there, just like you are rite beside me always! Please take care of yourself too, remember I am worry about you just like you do... OK? Remember all the promise. I will miss you! and I will wait for you! I promise! I will do that! My heart will be reserved for you only... Our love will never be end....

And my friends... I just want to say... You will always be my friends forever! You all tell me what is friends and friendship! I appreciate! Gonna meet you all soon! Remember to take care... When know new friends, please don't forget your old friends!!!

And perhaps I should promise myself I should be strong in every situation! and don't cry! Entering uni should be happy!!! Come on!! Smile~ Smile~ Smile~

This is not GOODBYE! It is a new beginning for all of us!! It's a new chapter in our life! It's perhaps a new challenge as well! We will never be scared!! Be strong! Enjoy the most happy time in uni!! May God bless...

Hey... CHEER UP!!! OK!!

Instead of sadness... Use our smile and laughter to welcome our brand new life!!!

Ok... Raining is stop now... (What a stupid weather...) See... I see the sunshine! Perhaps there is a beautiful rainbow outside there! Hopes are everywhere! Never be upset!

Sandakan... I'll be back! (wahaha~)